Sunday, January 17, 2021

Vera & Ayva are Going to be BIG SISTERS!!!

YEP you read that right!!! Vera and Ayva are going to be BIG SISTERS!!! Cambria and Jeff had their second embryo transfer on January 9th and they found out 6 days later that they were going to have another baby!!! But a few weeks later they found out that Cambria is housing another set of twins in her tummy!!!! So they will have 2 more siblings and be a family of 6!!! We are sooo excited and so grateful for modern medicine and IVF! WOW 4 kids under 3 years old, that's going to be a houseful!!


 

Wednesday, January 13, 2021

Gramma & Papa GREAT

With my parents on the other side of the veil, I want my grandkids to know that they may only have one set of grandparents on earth from our side of the family, that I want them to have experiences with their Horlacher GREAT Grandparents. We try and stop by once a week and visit and have them over when we have family dinners on Sunday. It's funny because I can see how exhausted they are after a while of being with 4 bundles of energy!!!

We love being together and I know that Bryan's parents LOVE their GREAT grandkids.
I can still remember when my kids were this age and they were being Grandparents for the first time.  



 

Wednesday, January 6, 2021

Vitamin Shopping

 Today we went shopping at 8:00am. I arranged our schedule so that right when the stores opened we were there, less people and less germs. We hooked Bryan's oxygen up to the portable tank and he was on his way. We of course had his 2nd dose of NAC and Emergencee before we left. Bryan said when he woke up, I feel pretty good, lets try and move my oxygen down to 1.5 as he was getting ready. Every now and then I saw him take off his nose tube and walk around without it. So I figured he can easily grab it if he needs it. We got in the truck and Bryan was soooooo excited to be "kind of" normal. He of course wanted to drive his TRUCK and he didn't wear his oxygen, but we had it close by incase he needed some air. 

We went to Wal-Mart, Natural Grocers and Costco to get Vitamins and then chik Fil A for breakfast burritos. We went to the temple and sat and watched the construction going on. Everytime we get Chik Fil A we go to the temple for our dinner at the temple. 

It was so good to be with my husband and see him starting to feel more normal. It's crazy when things like this happens you have a greater appreciation for your loved ones. Bryan was so excited to start feeling better and had so much hope and  faith in these supplements. I silently made a promise to Heavenly Father that with the knowledge that I have gained from my brother I would do all I could do to help others that get this nasty Virus. 


Tuesday, January 5, 2021

My Brother Joe brings us a blessing

Today Bryan has been doing a little bit better. It's so hard to watch him as he recovers. I get nervous when I see his number on his oximeter go down or when I see him run to the room to lay on his stomach or when I hear him say, "man my chest feels tight". The first time I heard him say that out loud, I messaged his nurse Natalie and she said if you have any worries, just take him into the ER to be checked. She also said, "A tight chest and shallow breathes are NOT good". She also sent me some info to read and just to give me more knowledge. He is still on oxygen and going between 2.5-2 liters. 

Tonight, my brother Joseph came over to bring Bryan a bottle of NAC and some Emergencee. He said that this is good stuff to help rebuild and strengthen his lungs. While he was here he shared with us his knowledge of supplements and things that he has tried and has been helping him. So I pulled out my notepad and started taking notes. He told me about his Diabetes and what has been helping him and what he takes for his heart and for his liver and joints. He gave me a huge list of things that will help us. It's funny but Bryan and I were just talking about getting ourselves more healthier as we age. I totally know that Joe's visit was a TENDER MERCY from our Heavenly Father to help us on this journey. 

We had a wonderful visit and he stayed for about 4 hours just talking and sharing knowledge. It was so good to see him. I gave Bryan his first dose of NAC and Emergencee and he went to bed (on the couch recliner with his oxygen in his nose). I am still sleeping in Sydnee's room and checking on Bryan a few times during the night. 

Monday, January 4, 2021

ALL ALONE caring for Bryan

This morning I had a prayer of thanks to my Heavenly Father and thanked him for my mom and her example to me of being such a great caregiver to my dad. I prayed to allow my mom to be with me during this time of taking care of Bryan so she can guide me of what to do for his care. I am still sleeping in Sydnee's room, I'm a little paranoid of getting this virus. I am so scared because I know that my lungs aren't totally 100% and I know what it feels like when I can't take deep breaths from my allergy induced asthma. So Bryan is sleeping on the couch in a sit up position with his oxygen at 2 liters. 

 Bryan woke up pretty tired and congested. He got in the shower and blew lots of black gunk out of his nose. He laid on the bed on his stomach and I had the thought to use the massage gun on his back and lower back and butt to increase blood flow while we listened to the Tabernacle Choir. After using the gun I went to the opposite side of the bed and grabbed the lotion to put some on his feet. (Bryan does NOT like people to rub his feet) So I grabbed one foot an put lotion on and rubbed into the dry skin. While rubbing it in I had a thought come into my mind that I should look up reflexology and concentrate in the areas of the lungs to help strengthen his lungs.

So I rubbed and paid closer attention to the pad of the foot below the toes area for the lungs. I did both feet and then rubbed lotion up his legs.  After I was done it was about 8:30am I looked at my phone and received this message from a lady who has been praying for Bryan through the WORLDWIDE UNIFIED FACEBOOK PAGE

SUSAN: Thank you for your update. I’m being told that God is giving Richard another healing now 🙏❤🙏8:24AM

I DON'T BELIEVE IN COINCIDENCES ONLY GOD INCIDENCES!
I believe he was directing me as I was massaging Bryan this morning. He put those thoughts in my mind and I was in tune to be able to listen.
I love my Heavenly Father and I am so grateful for his direction and love for me and my husband.
BRYAN'S THOUGHTS :
I keep thinking of movies like the end of  "Saving Private Ryan" when he is at his father's grave and he says, "tell me I'm a good man" (Bryan is bawling) I shared with him something from his cousin Rita: So grateful he is home and continues to get well. Not sure if I have ever told you guys this. My ex Alan thought the world of Bryan, he passed away last year in March , but he thought Bryan was the best ever. Always told me what a wonderful guy he is. Happy New Year to you and your family! 💜
(NO COINCIDENCE) 

Bryan is very weepy and sensitive to the spirit right now. He cries a lot and is very appreciative of all the prayers and love sent to him while in the hospital. He said, "Tonya it is amazing how much I could feel the love and prayers of everyone. Having Fabian's wife as my nurse was also a tender mercy." He was so tender and sensitive with so much gratitude for his life and Heavenly Father blessing him. We got news that our good friends were both in the hospital with COVID. Both of them not doing very well. We later found out that Lopini got to go home but his wife was just put on a ventilator and in ICU. Oh my goodness that is the worse news ever. OH Heavenly Father please bless her. We also got word that my Uncle Leonard was in the hospital with COVID as well and in the ICU. Bryan kept crying about everything he keeps hearing about other people fighting this virus. 

Thursday, December 31, 2020

HE's COMING HOME!!!

Thursday morning Bryan let us know that we should plan on Friday, Jan. 1st 2021 to come pick him up from the hospital. He was down to 5 liters. About an hour later he called and said that his oxygen is down to 3 liters and they said he could be picked up around 3 today!!!! OH MY GOODNESS WE WERE SO ExCITED!!!
I had a phone call from the hospital to confirm what he just told me and said for me to go refill his oxygen tanks and then come over and pick him up on Thursday, Dec. 31,2020. (Another blessing that we don't realize till later) The blessing was that Pres. Trump passed a bill to have all insurances pay for COVID related bills and whatever wasn't covered it would be written off by the government. He left the hospital on the last day of the year. Who would've known what would've happened if he stayed into the new year???
I was so excited to have him home even on OXYGEN!!!
That hug was EVERYTHING TO ME!!!
Man I love this man and I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for keeping him safe and blessing us with so many heavenly and earthly angels. 
I can't thank everyone enough for the prayers and fasting and love for my husband. 
I wore a mask for a few days because I was a little freaked out with the dang virus!!



Wednesday, December 30, 2020

Another Day in the Hospital

Bryan said that he was asked by the nurse if he knew anyone that had COVID and recovered? He told him yes, my sister-in-law and she has cancer as well, so I should make a good recovery if she could recover. He asked who his sister was and he said, "Tia Stokes". The nurse said, "Oh my gosh, everyone on this floor follows her and watches her" Bryan texted me and said, "Weird, everyone here follows Tia". He was amazed.

Bryan was very anxious while in the hospital. The first few days he was just wanting to come home and when the Dr. came in and said he will be staying till the end of the week, he was devastated. He called and told me that he didn't have Pneumonia and they want to continue watching that he doesn't develop Pneumonia. So he asked me to send him some clean garments because he gets to shower. When he first got in the hospital I told him I would send him a change of clothes and garments and he told me NO!!! I am NOT staying here very long and I am NOT moving in. So for him to ask for clean garments, made me laugh. Then he complained about his BUTT hurting from sitting so much, so I made arrangements with Mark Dewey who works at the hospital to drop a pillow off to him.

Bryan said that while in the hospital he saw another older man across the hall from him that came in shortly after him and then a few days later he was leaving. He asked the nurse, where the man was going and he said he's going home. Bryan was so surprised and he said, "HOW?" The nurse said he is down to 2 liters of oxygen, when you get there you will get to go home. He then asked him, "How did he move down to 2 liters? NOBODY has come in here to move mine down?" Bryan then took it upon himself to go to the wall and turn the dial to 4 liters.

He was blessed with another     TENDER MERCY with having Fabian Ortiz wife, Natalie be his nurse for 2 days. It was nice to have someone who knew Bryan personally and someone that cared for him and not just a number or name on a file. She helped ween him down the oxygen. She allowed him to walk and go to the bathroom on his own down the hall. She also called him "REBEL" because he was doing everything he could to get out of the hospital.

I received a call from the Social Worker to check on me at home. ANOTHER TENDER MERCY - I answered and it was Nichole Sorenson Hayden. Oh my goodness, another person who knew Bryan and cared for him as well. It was so good to visit with her and feel her love. 

The day Bryan was going to come home I received another phone call from the hospital to go over everything, it was another person I knew!! TENDER MERCY - it was Adam Cheney (he was in my mom's ward and an actor in a few shows that I have been to) He told me, "I know you but you probably don't know me," I knew him and was excited it was another connection on this journey. ABSOLUTELY NO COINCIDENCES!

Monday, December 28, 2020

LONGEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE

 It was the longest night ever!!! I got out of bed at 3:30am and went into the living room and stared at the Christmas Tree and cried and continued to PRAY with all that I had in me. I prayed that Bryan would be able to rest and breath and heal his body. I prayed till about 6:00pm and then I posted on facebook's Worldwide Unified page that I needed prayers for my sweet husband. Please pray that his lungs will remain clear and that he would be able to rest. I got call from my sister Irene and she said that she was on her way over to my house to be with me. She arrived with Starbucks for me and Syd and Cec and the babies. We talked and hugged and just hung out. I sure needed her visit more than I thought I did. I love when people become ministering angels.

About 7:45am I received a text message from Bryan:

"Hi Beautiful - I am doing great! Crazy story, at 4:00am a nurse came in and wanted to give me a sleeping pill but I told her that my wife is praying for me to sleep well so I will go with that. I fell asleep and just woke up, thanks for your prayers. I am doing better. They want to keep me in here till Thursday to keep an eye on me that I don't get pnuemonia"

Irene went to the hospital and dropped off tacos and a card but Bryan said that he wasn't able to eat them for lunch because his blood sugar was so high. We couldn't understand what was making his bloodsugar in the 400's. They figured it was the steroid. But they gave Bryan so much insulin but it wasn't doing anything for him. They figured he was Insulin resistant which is worse than Diabetic, if you don't take care of it. (Tender mercy we found that out) We figured out after the fact that the steroid was causing his blood sugar to spike. 

Sunday, December 27, 2020

CHRISTMAS MORNING 2 DAYS LATER - PAUSED

About 5:30am Cambria came up with Vera to see the Christmas tree and to see what Santa brought since this was going to be our Christmas morning. 

Cambria heard someone in the living room wrestling around and then she heard Bryan say, "hello". She said, "Dad-is that you? What's going on?" He said, "I can't breath and I'm trying to figure out this oxygen machine." Cambria ran downstairs to get Jeff and as she was telling Jeff Cecilee overheard her. CECILEE did NOT waste ANYTIME and ran upstairs to find Bryan with an Oxygen Saturation of 78. They told us anything under 90 was to go to the hospital IMMEDIATELY. He was struggling to take a deep breath. Cecilee switched the switch and felt air coming out and attached it to his face. He took a few deep breaths and We got him all settled and he was now at 91-92 and said he was fine. We set him in a chair and he watched us start with prayer and opening of presents. As we were opening gifts I was watching Bryan like a hawk and I noticed he wasn't comfortable. He kept moving back and forth to get comfortable and his numbers kept dropping and then going back to 91 ish. 


Trevor and Sydee started dividing the presents and we were all taking turns opening. It was fun being all together but Bryan didn't look very comfortable.

I then started crying as they handed me a present to open and just said I couldn't do this anymore. I needed dad to go to the hospital and get checked out. Everyone agreed with me and I asked Trevor to please take him. Cecilee and Cambria got the portable oxygen tank ready and hooked him to that, the girls got him shoes and a charger for his phone and Trevor took him. I just knew that I would feel so much better if he got checked out. (THANK GOODNESS I HAD the OXYGEN)

Trevor said that when they got to the hospital there was nobody in the waiting room and they took them right back. In the back there was one other person and Bryan so all of the Dr's and nurses could pay closer attention to Bryan. (Another tender mercy-because the next day for weeks after the ER and COVID unit was SLAMMED). This was about 8:00am when Trevor pulled out of the driveway, he returned at about 1:00pm and said, "Mom dad is in good hands and exactly where he needed to be. The Dr. said it was a good thing we got him there when we did and it was a good thing he had oxygen at his expense." All of my children except for Sydnee went back to their homes, after they cleaned my house and the girls DISINFECTED my bedroom, striping my bed and scrubbed my bathroom and vacuumed and wiped things down from COVID. My house was spotless!!! Cecilee told me that she was going to come back and stay with me overnight because she could see I was having a hard time. I love my kids and am so grateful for their love. I don't know what I did to deserve such amazing children. 

Bryan texted me and said he was getting a lot of messages. I told him to turn off his phone and relax and concentrate on himself. He told me to go to the Health App for the hospital and I can see what they are doing on him. So I went and I was totally lost. I understood his blood pressure and weight but nothing else. I was up all night stressing out about what I was seeing. I googled one thing and figured I better not google anything else. So I just prayed and prayed and prayed to Heavenly Father and talked to him all night to please keep an eye on Bryan and please heal him. I spent the whole night on my knees asking for Heavenly Father to help him relax and sleep to heal his body. Bryan texted 

Saturday, December 26, 2020

CHRISTMAS DAY - Totally NOT what we had expected!

 It's Christmas Morning and I am at Cambria and Jeff's house watching their family open their presents with Nancy and Jason Hauck and missing my husband so much. Bryan called and asked me to come home and change places with Sydnee because it broke his heart to see her by herself on Christmas Day. I came home and switched places with Syd. Cecilee came and picked her up to go and shop and have fun. This will be such a memorable Christmas holiday. It's funny how all of my planning for this family holiday really DOES NOT MATTER AT THIS TIME. I planned for all the traditions to be kept with PJ's and Ornaments and fun activities and food, but it has all changed because of Bryan's Covid and I am really OK with it. AALLLLL THAT MATTERS IS ThAT my husband makes a full recovery. 

It is now 7 days since his test results, but we know he started showing signs on that Thursday possibly Friday, so he is at 8-9 days. He was starting to feel a little better, so we started making plans for the kids to come over and spend the night in the basement tomorrow, Dec. 26th and we can have our Christmas Eve traditions and then Sunday morning open presents as in Christmas Morning. 

The kids came over on Saturday, Dec. 26th about 4:00pm we all visited in the backyard with Bryan and then someone had the idea to start heating the hot tub and go to the park and let the kids ride their bikes and everyone else play pickle ball. So we all went to the park, after bundling Bryan up with his mask and jacket and gloves, he and I just sat and watched like old people admiring our family. So full of love and pride for this family of ours that we created together. This is exactly what CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT! Being with FAMILY and LOVE.

We finished at the park and went home and did dinner and pj's and changed into swimsuits to get into the hot tub. The little's were so excited!!!! Bryan and I sat bundled in blankets and jackets watching our children and grandchildren again. But it was the best seeing all of them together and having a blast!!!


After the hot tub we came in and got everyone ready for bed and put on our Christmas Eve pjs. Rex absolutely LOVED his pj's and so did the girls. I of course had to get some pictures of the grandkids in their pj's under the tree by the presents. Santa and his elves, they loved it.
We got the kids all settled and the girls told Bryan to go lay down, he looked exhausted and a little discolored probably from doing too much walking.